making myself post.

I'm going to force myself to post on this right now even though I really don't want to, and I don't even want to admit how I'm feeling right now.
Bottom line: I need to seek mental health guidance again. I think I've put off this search for too long since graduation, as I knew it could be a long and awkward one. But I simply cannot let myself slip any further. It's unacceptable to be living life the way I do. I have so many loving people in my life and more than enough material things to keep me busy. Too much of my life is spent ignoring things that are happening, I'm too busy trying to escape. Who wants to live like that? Everything is passing me by and nothing has even happened yet. How do I move beyond this point?