a pain filled day.

the PT, though it obviously helped a lot, was pretty painful at times.

getting a needle stabbed 3 times in my toe was an unexpected part of my day.

and then being humiliated and degraded by my boyfriend to top it all off. (at least he apologized. no one else did).

so, clearly i need to get back on the 'taking care of myself' wagon.
i read so many blogs and sites about healthy eating, and yet my moods and the PMS monster have made me abandon all my morals and the hard work i've put into myself. it's a shame.

granted i can't work out right now due to my condition, but i don't understand why i'm not as committed to healthy eating as a once was.

HELLO: EATING FOOD DOES NOT MAKE YOUR PROBLEMS GO AWAY, AND IT DOESN'T MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER!

if you're not doing it (eating) the right way, then you'll just get fat. and that's the last thing i need right now...for my condition, for being a bridesmaid in a few weeks...the last thing i need is to gain weight after i've dropped so much. this has got to stop.

how is it that i'm exhausted today, as if i went to work, but besides being poked and stretched  out i've done mostly nothing?

get it together, girl. for your sanity and your health. you can do this.

opening a new page.

What does one do, when they need to start their life over?

How do you decide what 'the job for you' is?

Well. Now that I have time off from a job I've spent a week and a half training at, the job that's supposed to turn into my career, I need to heal up and think about how I'm going to tackle my new life.

So while I put details of my life into the ever-evolving space that is "the internet"...maybe some people will glaze their eyes over it. Or maybe it'll just be me.